Wednesday, September 30, 2009

can't sleep...

so i will just write some random things that are on my heart and mind....

- this is the first time that i have really had to FULLY trust God to provide. I believe that He has a purpose for calling me to Uganda. i believe i am being obedient by going. it's hard. but i believe God's timing is perfect. i KNOW he is faithful.

- i just finished CrazyLove. i crazy loved it. [i know, stupid joke. whatevs] i love being challenged to take Jesus at his word, to take what He said seriously. i think i might start reading this verse everyday...
  • "Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes." James 4:13-14.
how great it is to get that perspective. i love how francis chan puts it so bluntly....

  • "In about [100] years, no one will remember you. Everyone you know will be dead. Certainly no one will care about what job you had, what car you drove, what school you attended, or what clothes you wore." (page 46)
i am convicted whenever i think about how short my time here on earth is. just a vapor. a mist. i want to do something, anything that has eternal importance.

- my season of life is so weird right now. i'm not working. i'm not in school. i am planning for my future [school/work in nashville] and just checking the mail everyday to see if i can go to Uganda yet. it's hard to feel like i am doing anything with any eternal importance. i know it can be as small as loving those i come in contact with as if they are Christ. sometimes i just feel like blahh get me out of here....

on a less serious note...
- i am excited about... going to ut this weekend to visit my sister and see auburn [hopefully] beat those vols again.
- i read ruminations.com way more than i should.
- i'm embarrassed to admit that if wifeswap is on tv i will watch it.
-i miss auburn. a lot.

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